RE's office
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Walking into the Reproductive Endocrinologist’s office was a little daunting.
A woman was walking out as we went in. I normally look people in the eyes as I pass them. Another couple came in when we were in the waiting room. I don't look them in the eye.
It’s a strange thing. I mean, normally you go into a doctor’s office and there us relative anonymity.
Even at a gyno’s office.
Not here.
Everyone knows why you are there.
Everyone knows that you cannot conceive.
It’s like this shameful club. Your secret is out. You can hide the fact all you want from the rest of the world.
“No children yet. Someday…”
“No, we haven’t had any kid’s yet. We’ve only been married for two years…”
But you cannot hide the secret here.
And you don’t know what to expect when you enter the doors:
Will this become one of my biggest triumphs to date?
Or one of my biggest heartbreaks?
And you don’t look the other people in the eye. Do you look at them with a secret knowing? You know that you don’t want to be met with eyes filled with pity.
A woman was walking out as we went in. I normally look people in the eyes as I pass them. Another couple came in when we were in the waiting room. I don't look them in the eye.
It’s a strange thing. I mean, normally you go into a doctor’s office and there us relative anonymity.
Even at a gyno’s office.
Not here.
Everyone knows why you are there.
Everyone knows that you cannot conceive.
It’s like this shameful club. Your secret is out. You can hide the fact all you want from the rest of the world.
“No children yet. Someday…”
“No, we haven’t had any kid’s yet. We’ve only been married for two years…”
But you cannot hide the secret here.
And you don’t know what to expect when you enter the doors:
Will this become one of my biggest triumphs to date?
Or one of my biggest heartbreaks?
And you don’t look the other people in the eye. Do you look at them with a secret knowing? You know that you don’t want to be met with eyes filled with pity.
1 comments:
You are right; you cannot hide the secret of why you're there. However, it is a place of hope for everyone in the office, including the staff. When even one succeeds there is joy that is contagious. Am I next? HOPE.
There are other offices where you cannot hide the secret of why you are there. Like, Oncology offices, again -"why me?"- but it is still a place of hope.
Still other offices where the secret cannot hide uses procedures to terminate the same essence of life you are seeking to create. Maybe these patients feel hope afterward, maybe not. I wonder if these patients look each other in the eye?
Maybe you should look your fellow couples in the eye. You have nothing to be shameful for. Communicate HOPE. You may be the next one that celebrates.
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