Officially Self-Employed!
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It's official! I am no longer working for the man. Well, unless you count Rick. ;)
During my last week at AzCA, I went through all kinds of emotions. It was difficult to let go of some of my foster families. Having spent so much time with them in their homes, battling CPS with them, advocating for their needs and rights, you develop a strong bond. I became protective over them. I know what they can handle in terms of childrens behaviors, what their strengths and needs are. I learned over time how to address issues and concerns I have about their home. I know how they will best take information they don't want to hear. I have gained their trust and they have come to depend on me. And now I have had to severe those ties and pass them on to other workers. The protective part in me is freaked out that they will not be understood like I have understood them. Or that they won't be advocated for in the way they need. I have had to deal with let go of that sense of protectiveness and control this past week. It's not so easy to do. I can't imagine what it is like when parents give it up for their children. Geesh.
I have also dealt with the hurt that comes with my leaving being completely ignored by some people in that office. It is not a secret that I have not gotten along with a couple people there. But, really? Completely ignoring me on my last week? Not even saying a quick Heyheardyouwereleavinggoodluck?? That's just cold. By mid-week I was feeling hurt- and it brought up past hurt. But by Friday I didn't give a shit anymore. I can't say that all thew past hurt is something I have totally let go of. I will probably always hold it against those bitches. I was surprised that some of them came to my going away lunch. But it is funny that they still didn't say anything to me or acknowledge that the lunch was actually for me. Bitches.
Anyways. I have registered for my classes and am eager to start this new endeavor! Now i just need for the roommate to get his ass out of my home so I can have a real office and not work fromt he dining room table! :P
During my last week at AzCA, I went through all kinds of emotions. It was difficult to let go of some of my foster families. Having spent so much time with them in their homes, battling CPS with them, advocating for their needs and rights, you develop a strong bond. I became protective over them. I know what they can handle in terms of childrens behaviors, what their strengths and needs are. I learned over time how to address issues and concerns I have about their home. I know how they will best take information they don't want to hear. I have gained their trust and they have come to depend on me. And now I have had to severe those ties and pass them on to other workers. The protective part in me is freaked out that they will not be understood like I have understood them. Or that they won't be advocated for in the way they need. I have had to deal with let go of that sense of protectiveness and control this past week. It's not so easy to do. I can't imagine what it is like when parents give it up for their children. Geesh.
I have also dealt with the hurt that comes with my leaving being completely ignored by some people in that office. It is not a secret that I have not gotten along with a couple people there. But, really? Completely ignoring me on my last week? Not even saying a quick Heyheardyouwereleavinggoodluck?? That's just cold. By mid-week I was feeling hurt- and it brought up past hurt. But by Friday I didn't give a shit anymore. I can't say that all thew past hurt is something I have totally let go of. I will probably always hold it against those bitches. I was surprised that some of them came to my going away lunch. But it is funny that they still didn't say anything to me or acknowledge that the lunch was actually for me. Bitches.
Anyways. I have registered for my classes and am eager to start this new endeavor! Now i just need for the roommate to get his ass out of my home so I can have a real office and not work fromt he dining room table! :P
